Small notebook (handmade)

It has been some time since I decided to make small version of notebooks I made in past. My first intention was to re-use blank pages of stripped paper I have in pilles from old school notebooks. So why not use it right? 

Trip to Goriška Brda

So I moved my lazy ass and decided it is time to put all of this together :) I divided this post in a few sections so it is easier to explain and add pictures I took :)

The trip to Goriška Brda was actually with blind or partially sighted people and their escorts (29). The bus drive took us around two hours, maybe a bit less. We mainly rode the highway only towards the end we went through ups and downs and lefts and rights :) The little map of our chicken country shows our way from the circle (or somewhere around there) to the red mark which is municipality Goriška Brda, known for best cherries and wine which is world-wide known. Many small villages which already remind you of jadranic style but still mix of more inlandic style. The long roads of fields, grass fields, many many vineyards, each village having a church etc.

Kiyoku Yawaku (Beyond the memories) japanese movie

This movie came to my list all of a sudden and with the typical way Anny does it, by following actor I liked in the past but let him stray to a sidetracks as many others. There comes the time when I remember them, one by one, and I decide to check what is new during my absence. This time it was Okada Masaki's turn with this movie which actually made me check the manga as well (although only 4 chapters are translated where he doesn't even appear yet *sulky*). 

Many things...

In the past few days some stuff happened, good or bad or nervous ones etc. Many for someone like me :) Friends know what I mean... 

For starters a dear friend had an important operation on Thursday. Man she just had to say goodbye before that, making me cry... She was not aware that I knew of her situation. Well I didn't try to make fun of it or anything behind her back, just silently supporting her without her knowledge (until she was told about it :D). I'm glad my gift for her arrived before the operation, just in case you know... yes I worried if it would come or not because I sent it some time ago, it was taking too long... And I sent that gift just like that, friend to a friend thou it got totally different and even better meaning now. So thank you dear post for the first time for being so slow and knowing when to make it reach the destination :) I hear friend is doing okay for now... no new news so am patiently (or not) waiting for more infos from her friends which update us the-far-away-land-friends who can't be there for her <3 Thank you all!

While waiting for the hopefully good or best news there can be, I do many things but am slightly reluctant to share it all... There is this habit of mine to spend time on things so I don't constantly think of bad things... usually could sound wrong or misunderstood... Can't actually say I had much fun on same Thursday... but I did... I haven't had so much fun lately than on that day... I feel a bit apologetic towards it but when I came home that day (it was too late for my likings already) but I went to check the news! And I am glad I did because I got for now good infos and I was able to chase the lil guilty feelings I had for having fun while my friend had tough time... 

To explain further that Thursday: 

- in the morning I went to swim with sister, some bonding time as usually and I totally like it + spent some time with the little nephew too :)

- lil bit of helping out at the library

- called a friend in ages (the new mommy), just felt like it and had really nice chat about this and that, listened to her worries and so on, lovely bonding time again. 

- met a friend I sometimes meet in the capital. She is few years younger than me but sometimes gives me a feeling of being older than me :) But we are both kids, both liking asian things so we have a lot in common to talk about, never ending stories :) We went for lunch and a drink. More bonding time. 

- met two ex-coworkers for a drink, one is blind btw. Haven't seen them in a while, it felt nice to hear what they do now etc. Anny did even more bonding time. 

- with same last mentioned people we met some other ex-coworkers for a theatre. We have this paid yearly ticket for 4 shows and sadly we don't pick the dates (or wouldn't have picked that day because of my friend from start of the post). And the show was too hillarious, best of the 4 we have seen this year. What is even better is that we got always the first row seats because half of the "gang" doesn't see well or is blind so it is easier for them + for me too, to see expressions as well. Anyway the show was really enjoyable (okay the end was just wtf?? but nevermind). And after the show we all went again for another drink in the old part of the capital :) Came home at midnight and managed to go to bed around half 1 lol I can see someone smile at this as it really is late hour for me :) Many many bonding time :D

Today more stuff happened, interesting and fun ones too... I helped around at a Braille reading and writing competition. I met more blind or partially sighted people I haven't before or knew only from the phone and first time I saw how such a competition happens. You have two groups actually. First is those who read Braille from paper and write on the old typing machine. That machine is not the normal one we know but Braille typing machine with only 10 buttons or so. 6 buttons are for the combinations of Braille dots, the others for new row, corrections etc. The second group is the "modern" group that reads with Braille line from a computer and writes with normal keyboard. When it comes to reading they are time limited to 2 minutes and they should read as many words in that time and also nicely and understandable. When it comes to writing there is one who is telling them sentences and they write it down then the mistakes are checked. Then all points get joined together. As I said it was interesting and fun, mostly because you are amazed again by the abilities they show you and good energy through the whole day. Completelly worth it :) And I helped ex-coworker friend that was there as well. How? I put make-up on her (she is blind) as she had some lunch with someone later hihi Also really something completelly new for me :)

Ah the guilty feeling is kicking in again... shoooo~! Go away... 

Kal Ho Na Ho (Indian movie)

Warning: Possible spoilers...

Note: It was my first time watching Indian movie so I can't use many names here... that is my general weakness so I hope it will make sense :)

It is actually tough to write a review of this movie without spilling some major spoilers here... Anny the spoiler queen, let's do my best not to go with my title :)

Big brother...

Another short thinking my nephews made me think the other day but I didn't put it in words yet. It is the fact I always wished to have an older brother, that ideal vision of protective big brother etc. Instead I have only older sisters :P 

Why my nephews reminded me of that? It is because the younger one will have a big brother and the older one is already showing signs of what I wished to have :P He didn't like him at first because mommy was also whole month not home etc. the kiddos can easily missunderstand, right? But the other day at older one's bday party the lil one was lying on a blanket. Their aunt from dad's side pretended that she will use water gun on little one. Older one glared at her, saying: "DON'T SQUIRT WATER ON HIM!"

Totally protective :D And sis showed me a picture later as well, big one hugging the little one, both sleeping <3 Slightly envy hihi Imagine when they get older wooo :D

You... yes you!

It has been a month since you ran away with the tail between your legs, with excuses and childish behavior, unable to see you only want yourself to feel good, comfortable, making reasons with yourself that your decisions are best and should be understood by all around you... After a month you poke around as if looking if someone still remembers you, if we are still upset. Trying to apologize out of nowhere then close the chapter at your side because our reaction wasn't up to your expectation... pffff we closed our door the time you ran away. We moved on, we don't miss you, we have fun on our own. But we see you lurking around us. Why is that? Is the curiosity that strong? Or looking for a way to sneak back in?

Knowing that you might see this, I wrote this little bit. I don't believe running away from me is due to not trying to have me in the middle... You should have thought about this beforehand, before your actions not after the coffee is spilled and the stain doesn't go away. As I said, the chapter is closed at our side for a while now, our lives are moving on. We are at least working on ourselves to change for the better, fix our mistakes etc. Staying in one place, never changing, being each day the same, won't take you anywhere. That is a boat on the river but tied to the shore while our boats are free, we move along the river.

Why did I even bother to write this? Because I see you check my blog and this is my last option to convey my words. I might even delete this soon...

Nostalgia of being a child

Anyone wants to go back to being a child? We all wanted to grow up fast, they still wish for that, those young ones. Just like us, they don't know what adulthood brings and like us, they will want to go back to the time when you were carefree, when you knew only about play and having fun, without the responsibilities, worries etc... 

Little update :)

Thought I need to write a little personal post among the many other ones :D About time :) 

- Some know already but that job interview other time... has failed... I also got some other negative answers from other places... feeling a bit down because of it, lack of confidence but gotta fight further... And I have consultation this week again... 

- That dear preggy person I mentioned few posts ago was in hospital for two days, getting infusion as she was 3rd rate dehydrated due to constantly visiting bathroom, not eating and drinking enough... She is lotsa better now <3

- One friend of mine is having a tough time. I can't be there for her but can be here for her :) Will try to make you smile often! <3

- This week I was at dentist... that usually scary place... at least that is how I felt when younger, dentists used to nag, scold etc. so eventually I stopped going... last year I applied to the dentists where my dad goes as well and must say I go there with a lighter heart now. First time last year was a bit so so as well as they had to work on my mess :P Inflamed gum at many places etc., had to treat it "if you don't want to lose your teeth at an early age" is what they said. We started working better on my hygene (better is the point here lol don't wanna sound dirty...) XD Since then I got better at it and this week he checked my whole gum we could say. At 168 places (6 times per tooth) he went between my tooth and gum to see how much it is parted and how much it bleeds. It is easier to know now where I lack and to put more attention to, to fix. But got my first praise by dentists, I guess they know the psychological parts of dentists well. Praise helps more than scolding. Even when he said at which parts I didn't do well, he said he isn't scolding but only instructing me. At cleaning, nurse had at some times hand on my shoulder... Totally different than dentists I visited as a kid... Anyway this point became too long...

Fatal Intuition (korean movie)

Warning: possible spoilers!

FINALLY!! This is what I have to say first because the good subtitles finally came and I could finally see my hubby Joo Won in thriller movie which had damn captivating trailer :) For me it was worth the wait.